bowler_300

Trying my best.

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 18:05:48 GMT

I just want to dig a hole in the back yard and pull the earth over me. ANYTHING to keep myself from feeling like this! I hate the fact that she hurt AND lied to me. And I just want to know one lousy question; when will I start feeling better?? I cannot eat or sleep and all I want to do is lock myself away in my room. I just wish we were never together. But then again, if it wasn't her it would have probably be someone else breaking my heart in two.

Starting over

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 12:07:27 GMT

A very special person in my life has left me. She decided that my love was not enough to keep her happy and so she went out and became interested in someone else. Yeah, I'm hurt beyond words, especially when all she wants is to be friends. Why do thay all want to be "just friends?!?" I absolutely hate that because you know darn well that if you're hurting this badly inside there is NO way you'll ever be the same. And if YOU'RE not the same then why would you EVER want to be friends with this person ever again knowing how much they hurt you and wondering if they're going to hurt you all over aagain? Now I have to start all over with trusting people and making new plans for a new life. She already has. It was THAT simple for her.

Friday night

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 01:10:48 GMT

Thank goodness it's Friday!!!!! I am so glad the week is finally over. Now I get to sleep in past 5 o'clock.
I was WAY too cold today. I think it got up to 5 degrees. I don't see spring anywhere in sight. All this snow would have been great on Christmas Eve when I was opening my gifts. Oh well, maybe tomorrow it will be a little warmer (yeah, like 10 degrees.)

Wed night

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 00:27:04 GMT

Winters always get me down. It's cold, it's always dark out when I get off of work, and it's just a time of the year that seems to last the longest. I think I'm over having cabin fever but I just feel like I want to DO something. But the problem is WHAT do I do? I always suggest things to my room mate but she's rather stay at home and veg. Sometimes that's nice but sometimes I cannot stay cooped up in this little apartment. Come to think of it, maybe I'm not over having cabin fever.

Another cold evening

Thu, 08 Jan 2004 23:49:13 GMT

It's Elvis' birthday. I think it's great that they still show some of his movies on select tv channels. I like the movies he made in the 50's. They are his best (even though he only made 4 of them before he got drafted!)

We cleaned the house and moved some furniture around. It's a nice change. I hope tomorrow I can get the rest of the laundry finished. It's sad, my vacation is coming to an end. My next one will be in May when I go to Kansas for the bowling tournament. I hate going out of town to bowl. It's expensive and I get homesick. Plus, I bowl terrible. And the last two tournaments I went to out of town, I didn't really know the people too well. (Thus making me more homesick...)

Weds. night

Thu, 08 Jan 2004 02:59:58 GMT

I'm completely new to this. I'm having a great vacation and I do not want to go back to work. But those bills do not pay for themselves and so I must return to the "salt mines" on Monday. sigh.